I know, I know. I've been away for so long, and I just randomly show up with a vague update and a joinme. Just like last time. I believe I owe an apology for leaving for such a long time. I'm back now! I don't plan on leaving again for so long. I've been a bit preoccupied with life, lately. Nearly being done with high-school has hit me rather hard, so I've been focusing more on my school work and less on my internet life. I've been looking at colleges other than my dream school, because I already know mother won't be letting me leave the state. She has this rule that none of her children can go to a college that is more than 3 hours away. It limits my options by a great deal, so now I'm working on finding a place here that I would be interested in. So far, I haven't really found anything I love. If I'm going to leave school just to go to school again, I want to pick a school I fall in love with. It's my choice, so I might as well find the best thing I can based on my limits.
Enough about school, most of you are dealing with that. I'm sure you all don't want to read about how I'm taking education seriously. Time for actual life updates!
As I've said in my last journal, I have a girlfriend now! Her name is Brandes, and she's absolutely wonderful. I'm not sure if I've written about her before, but I had a huge crush on her last year. She was dating someone at that time, but on September 13th, 2013, she asked me out. (Yep, on Friday the 13th. So romantic). I had said yes, but then about a week later I had a massive mental breakdown. I ended things due to the fact that I was unable to care for myself and would not be able to care for someone else. I recovered shortly after. A week ago, we started dating again. She's really wonderful. We're good for each other, or so I've been told. I'm happy, and she's happy. She is my first girlfriend since coming out, so it's an adventure.
I mentioned a mental breakdown. So I suppose it's only fair to talk about my mental health from the time I was last on, up until this very moment. I stopped cutting back in June. Sometime around the end of August, I started again. I promised myself I wasn't going to let it become the habit it had been. I was only doing about 50 cuts in a week, which was nothing compared to what I had been doing. I slowly stopped, again. I had been okay until that mental breakdown back in September. That breakdown led to, by my count, over 200 cuts. My legs needed stitches. I've got some pretty ugly scars on my hips that probably won't be going away for quite some time. This is the second time I've ever needed stitches due to self-harm. I haven't cut since then, and I feel like I'm in control right now. I definitely feel like I'm in control of my mental illnesses at this moment.
I believe that I've covered everything. At least, everything I think needed covering.
I hope each and every one of you is doing well.
You can all expect more art coming from me.
I spent a lot of time of my blogs (which you can find the links to on my profile), or if you can send a note and I may or may not consider giving you a link to my facebook. (I go on, but only for short amounts of time to check up on friends or make a funny update).
Well, that's all!